No more breath inside...

"sometimes it feels like the whole wide world has made itself my enemy..."

Tue, 17 May 2005 02:51:58 GMT

So yeah. We got a half day tomorrow. And school is coming to a close pretty fast and i got a bunch of things to do for college. Im thinking about buying a new vehicle this summer. Im thinking of a car with a V8 or just a quick 4 cylinder turbo. Donno yet but when i get enough money ill start looking around...

~Wildoe~

Well...

Mon, 06 Dec 2004 20:05:31 GMT

Well my life isnt getting any better so yea...Wednesday we have a half day and shit. im chillin with a few people. i work today and tomorrow then i get wed. and thursday off.

well anyway, Spring Break should be fun.

~Wildoe~

yeah...

Fri, 19 Nov 2004 04:01:35 GMT

I walk a lonely road
The only one I that have ever known
Don't know were it goes
But its home and I walk alone

thats how my life is and probably will be for the rest of eternity. But i know im going to love all my friends til im dead and gone.

i love you all

~Wildoe~

fuck...

Wed, 17 Nov 2004 02:50:24 GMT

Why is life so hard? It sux, i seriously hate my life right now. Nothing works out and im still left lonely. I feel that all i do is piss people off and i dont wanna do that...

~Wildoe~

wow its been to long

Thu, 11 Nov 2004 23:26:39 GMT

Well i havent updated in awhile but thats ok...

Nothing really exciting happened so yeah. Im a bored lil boy now a days. Supposively drinking tomorrow if we can get some...

Yeah alright PEACE

fuck parents

Wed, 03 Nov 2004 22:15:03 GMT

I dont get how parents know that your smoking then when they find a pack of cigarettes, they ground you...

Bored? ((Over 100 questions))
Created by xSwtLilAngel666x and taken 45097 times on bzoink!
[x] Part 1 -- The Basics [x]
What's your name? ::	Wil
Birthplace ::	Mt. Clemens, MI
Age ::	17
Age you act ::	many ages
Current location ::	Grandmas house
Eye color ::	blue
Hair color ::	blonde
Right, lefty or ambidextrous? ::	Righty
Zodiac sign? ::	Ares?
Height? ::	5'10
[x] Part 2 -- Describe... [x]
Your heritage/nationality ::	Norweigon, German, Scotish, Irish, Austrian
Your hair ::	is weird?
Your fears ::	life alone...
Your perfect room ::	ummm...a room with space
What you practically do in a day ::	go out and hang with friends
[x] Part 3 -- What is/are... [x]
Words you overuse ::	fuck
Phrases you overuse ::	oh my god
Your first thought when you wake up ::	i dont wanna get up
Your greatest accomplishment ::	getting enrolled into Baker College
Something you want to do ::	Own my own auto business with Nick
[x] Part 4 -- This or that [x]
Pepsi or Coke ::	Pepsi
McDonald's or Burger Kings ::	McDonald's cuz i get free food
Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera ::	neither
Chocolate or vanilla ::	chocolate
Adidas or Nike ::	neither
Black or white ::	Black
Bills or Coins ((Think $$$)) ::	Bills
Burgers or hot dogs ::	both
Egypt or France ::	ehhh...France
Rock or rap ::	Rock
[x] Part 5 -- Do you...[x]
Smoke ::	yes
Cuss ::	yes
Sing well ::	i dont think so
Sing in the shower ::	no
Talk to yourself --a lot-- ::	not really
Believe in yourself ::	when i dont feel low after talking to my parents
Like taking these longass surveys? ::	yeah
Play an instrument ::	yep 3
Want to go to college? ::	already enrolled
Want to get married? ::	yeah
Want to have children? ::	yeah
Think you're a health freak? ::	no
Get along with your parents ::	not really
Get along with your siblings? ::	a lil bit
Think you're popular ::	no
[x] Part 6 -- In the past month have you..[x]
Gone out of state ::	yeah
Drank alchohal ::	yeah
Smoke ::	yeah
Get high ::	yeah
Done any drugs ::	yeah
Eaten an entire box of oreos ::	almost
Been on stage ::	yeah
Gone skinny dipping ::	yeah
Been dumped ::	yeah, all the time
Dyed your hair ::	nope
Stolen anything ::	yeah
[x] Part 7 -- Your friends! =D [x]
Craziest ::	everyone
Loudest ::	everyone
Most shy ::	donno
Blondest ::	Michelle
Smartest ::	donno were all stupid
Kindest ::	all of us at times
Best personality ::	all of us
Most talented ::	Rich (musically)
Best singer ::	donno
Most ghetto ::	everyone of us
Drama Queen ((or King XP)) ::	?
Pain in the ass ::	all of us
The one you just want to strangle to death ((Homer Simpson style))::	Kristina
Funniest ::	all of us
Best person for advice ::	Kelly, Brittney, Michelle, or Nick
Dependable ::	i donno
Trustworthy ::	a select few
Druggie ::	JOE
Most likely to end up in jail ::	ME
Person you've known the longest ::	Nick
[x] Part 8 -- The Last... [x]
Last dream ::	dont remember
Last nightmare ::	dont remember
Car ride ::	my house to here
Last time you cried ::	when i freaked out
Last movie seen ::	Halloween 5
Last movie rented ::	no idea
Last book read ::	no idea
Last word said ::	thing
Last curse word said ::	fuck
Last time you laugh ::	school
Last phone call ::	dont even know
Last CD played ::	Avenged Sevenfold - Sounding the Seventh Trumpet
Last song you listened to ::	Forgotten Faces
Last annoyance ::	donno
Last IM ::	no one
Last weird encounter ::	knowing Jessica knew my cousin Joe
Last person you hugged ::	dont even remember
Last person you yelled at ::	dad
Last time you wore a skirt ::	never
Last time you've been evil ::	"today" is what my parents would say
Sarcastic? ::	15 minutes ago
Last time you fought with your parents ::	like 5 minutes ago
Last time you wished upon a star ::	awhile ago
Played Truth or Dare ::	a long time ago
Spent quality time alone ::	ummm i dont remember
[x] Part 9 -- I swear this is the last one! -- Randomness [x]
Are you talking to someone on AIM ::	no
Do you feel lonely ::	yep
Ever TP'd someone's house ::	no
How about egging someone's house ::	yeah
Do you not like dislike not like me? ::	what the hell are you talking about
Ain't Eminem and 50 Cent just fine? ::	no
Yo Momma ::	fuck off
Ever been so hungry you felt like you could eat the person next to you? ::	no
What do you think of George Bush? ::	hes alright
Any secret fetishes? ::	no
Do you like to wear chains? O_o ::	no
How many languages do you speak? ::	english
Damn.. are your fingers tired? Cause mine sure are! ::	no
Glad this is over? ((Say yes and I'll stalk you =P)) ::	yes i am
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blah

Sun, 31 Oct 2004 19:01:51 GMT

Happy Halloween Fuckers...

I get to work so yeah that sux. oh well tho its money...today might be a lil boring blah.

~Wildoe~

sup people

Fri, 29 Oct 2004 21:43:06 GMT

Well its been awhile since i updated...

Well ummm nothing really exciting has happened to me. blah

~Wildoe~

ouch

Sat, 23 Oct 2004 19:02:34 GMT

Well last nite was very fun. I got to chill w/ Jessica, Nick, Michelle, Zach, Brittani, and Kramer. We had fun ripping a sign outta the ground til they dropped it on my head. Then we did some other stuff.

Today im working then stopping by Bobby's party after. Its going to be fun.

well im out....

~Wildoe~

....

Wed, 20 Oct 2004 22:51:55 GMT

If anyone thinks im acting emo to get attention then tell me...

If you think that way then u dont know me very well. You dont know what i go thru everyday...

~Wildoe~

depression setting in...again

Tue, 19 Oct 2004 00:27:34 GMT

Well yesterday i chilled w/ Jessica and her friend Amanda. It was kool. I knew i seen her somewhere before and she seen me before...she is friends w/ my cousin Joe! i was like HOLY SHIT ITS A SMALL WORLD!!! we had fun

Well lately, everyone of my friends has found someone to love...except for Wildoe...Nick and Michelle, Cait and Rich, Kelly and Matt, Carl and Sam, Ryan and Angelica, etc...

I was meant to be alone and lonely...i know that now...

Im also kicked outta my house when i turn 18 so yeah thats great...at least i have a job to support me somewhat...

im seriously giving up on finding anyone...

At least i know my friends will always have my back for anything and will help me thru my painful life...

~Wildoe~

la de da de da

Sat, 16 Oct 2004 02:57:42 GMT

Well the past few days havent really been exciting. Been working at Carlo's and shit...

Today, went to school cuz i had a half day. Came home, went to target w/ Michelle and got a T-Shirt for Nick. Left and dropped Michelle off so i could go home for a few. Chilled there and called Jessica and talked to her for a bit. Shes kool as hell. Then left and went to Michelles again. Chilled there then went to Nicks. I left there around 4:40 and then i left and hung out w/ Kelly for a few hours. Dropped her off and then met up w/ Michelle, Nick, Cait, and Rich. Then we drove around and then ended up here at Michelles where we'll be for the rest of the nite. So yeah...

Hope everyone has a happy sweetest day w/ their loved ones cuz i dont get to chill w/ mine. I think im hanging out w/ Zach and Brittani til i have to work. Brittani is making me something for sweetest day. Donno what it is but i think she just feels sorry for me...heh...so yeah.

Tomorrow should be alright.

Sunday im hanging out w/ Jessica and i dont know what were going to do but it'll probably be fun. So yeah

~Wildoe~

blah

Thu, 14 Oct 2004 15:50:48 GMT

Well im kind of mad at myself lately. I dont like myself at all. I respect my friends more than myself. Well today were going to kick Alex's ass but his pussy ass probably wont show up so yeah. fuck that bitch. im out

~Wildoe~

take away my pain

Tue, 12 Oct 2004 19:24:59 GMT

Slit my wrists, take away the pain.
Slit my throat, everyone's to blame.
Lost in the fields of confusion.
Restless nights, they're not far away.

Exactly how i feel. im at the bottom of the totem pole compared to everyone else. im going to amount to nothing. why am i the one who fucks up everything without knowing i am. can someone even help me? i doubt it...

im sorry to all my friends for acting like a dick around them...

~Wildoe~

chillin

Sun, 10 Oct 2004 17:56:41 GMT

Im chillin over Michelles studying for my interview at Carlo's. Im so gonna bomb the interview

were going over Nicks soon and visiting him.

~Wildoe~

depression

Sat, 09 Oct 2004 01:15:15 GMT

I to want to take a drill to my head
Let the pain out of the hole
I want to cut the veins in my neck
Cool the blood boiling my soul

Thats how i feel rite now. The reason im such a lil emo bitch and depressed is cuz of my parents. They treat me so bad and make my self esteem go thru the floor. Wow, great parents huh...

~Wildoe~

i hate my life

shit

Fri, 08 Oct 2004 21:27:40 GMT

Hanging with Michelle and Nick. Later Kelly is going to call us

~Wildoe~

lately i've been an emo bitch

:-(

blah blah blah

Wed, 06 Oct 2004 22:15:46 GMT

Well besides the shit with Kristina that i keep adding too. My lifes kool. Me and Kelly resolved our problems and the fab four lives on.

Well anyway, the past few days have been alright so yeah

~Wildoe~

wowza

Sat, 02 Oct 2004 04:15:58 GMT

Well today we skipped pankow and went offroading then some guys told us about a party later that nite and found the wrong party then me, carl, ryan, nick, michelle, sam, connor and kramer found our own spot on the sand dunes and made a bon fire and chilled up there for like 3 hours and did stupid shit. Offroading was sweet. Then we left and washed the lumina and the jimmy and then i took Kramer to Michelles to get his car, and drop Michelle off then dropped Nick off and then came home. It was an exciting day.

...i wish my jimmy was higher so i could do more shit...and had bigger tires...

~Wildoe~

alrighty than...

Fri, 01 Oct 2004 19:33:25 GMT

I cant post certain things in my journal. I just dont know whats wrong since im over her 95%. And i guess i talk to her like a kid which i talk to everyone like that. Kelly, im not being mean to u. Also, u could maybe make an effort to call me or anyone of us cuz a phone does work 2 ways. Im not being a dick, im just saying that u can make an effort too, it doesnt have to be us calling u to hang out all the time.

So anyway, Me, Ryan, and Nick skipped pankow and went offroading, it was fun. Carl W. came w/ us too and i had to pull Ryan out 2 times. The Jimmy is a beast

haha

~Wildoe~

bye bye beautiful

Fri, 01 Oct 2004 02:33:59 GMT

Well the past few days have been me hanging w/ Michelle and Nick. Tomorrow it might be the fab four but i donno yet. It just seems like shes always with Dan now but w/e its all good in the hood. I think she has a thing for him. hehe. Well im bored so yeah...my ticket got dismissed so im clean!

BOO YA

~Wildoe~

blah

Tue, 28 Sep 2004 21:51:42 GMT

Well im over Michelles so im not depressed...

stupid sticky space bar!!!

~Wildoe~

comment bitches

this is how i feel rite now...

Mon, 27 Sep 2004 01:07:22 GMT

I walk a lonely road
The only one I that have ever known
Don't know were it goes
But its home and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Blvd. of broken dreams
Were the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone

My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find
Till then I'll walk alone

Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line of the edge
And were I walk alone

Read between the lines of what's
Fucked up and every things all right
Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive
And I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find
Till then I'll walk alone

Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh
Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ah-Ah Ahhh

I walk this empty street
On the Blvd. of broken dreams
Were the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a..

My shadows the only one that walks beside me
My shallow hearts the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find
Till then I'll walk away!

fuck life

Sun, 26 Sep 2004 04:58:29 GMT

wow this song is talking to me...

what's your problem
can't you see it
and you go and blow it
like everyone knows you will

what am i?

Sun, 26 Sep 2004 03:58:37 GMT

What i am...

im...
a dick
a fuckup
a stupid kid
ugly
retarted
fuckup
ugly
a fuckup
a fuckup
a fuckup
a fuckup
a kid with so many problems
a person who cant do anything rite
a person who's a piece of shit
a fuck up
ugly
a person who cant keep a good relationship

comment me to add more

~Wildoe(the fuckup)~

i mind as well be dead...